My beautiful friend, Mary, had a really great post that led to a great thread about our bad habits of constantly ‘checking’ our emails/messages etc continuously throughout the day. I was going to leave another comment but it was getting too lengthy and I didn’t want to take over her blog. So I decided to share my random and rather all over the place thoughts that came from her post here instead. Remember to go back to her blog and leave her a comment for a chance to win some gnarly prizes!
I’ve been feeling very guilty about my chronic addiction to having to ‘check’ things throughout the day. It’s nice on one hand having a laptop in an accesible place where I can easily check on a recipe or send a quick message to someone. But it’s also like having a bowl of candy or chocolate out for me to dip my fingers into every time I walk by. In a way it’s nice knowing it’s not just me that has a problem with this but it also made me stop to ponder on a deeper level why we do this. For me, I think I sometimes feel it is my lifeline to others or to the world outside of my own. I am restless and hope to find rest when the screen appears. And well, as much as I try to change it, laundry and dishes just aren’t all that exciting so getting online sometimes provides me with some much needed comic relief. But I also sometimes think I’m hoping to find something more, an answer, perhaps or some direction when I go to ‘check things’ on the computer. Then I hear Jesus’ words to Mary Magdalen, “Who are you looking for?” and I realize that maybe I am hoping to find God by brushing my finger across the mouse pad. I yearn for God and am constantly looking for Him. I have found Him first and foremost in others since He is here within us all, and maybe that is why I am constantly pulled to ‘check things’ and interact with others online or see what people think or have been up to. Maybe they have figured out the secret to happiness and peace in a way I have not.
The devil can use the computer and blogs and FB etc to distract us from God and he hopes we will not find Him there but God always wins and sure enough we have discovered Him there too because we are people, and He dwells within us, so we will naturally find Him.
But our quest for God can’t stop there. My daughter commented yesterday at dinner while we were reading the Bible that it would be nice if we lived when Jesus was here so we could be with Him and see Him. We all agreed but then my husband and I reminded her that He is here. In spirit, he is here in our home when we look into each other’s eyes-Christ is there. He is in the Word and we receive His grace through the Church and the Sacraments. But most importantly, though not so obviously, He is constantly here with us, hidden in a simple piece of flat white bread. The Jews before Jesus came were looking and waiting for a messiah-an earthly king to come riding in on chariots of gold to save them from their Roman oppressors. They didn’t recognize Jesus as their hoped-for messiah because he was too plain and ordinary and had no real political aspirations or any fancy weapons. In the same way, it might not make sense for God, who is bigger than the huge mind-boggling universe, to choose a flimsy piece of plain white bread as the host of His Perpetual Sacrifice–His body and blood. He became a man, gave up His life for us and died, rose again, and ascended into Heaven but He is here, with us, in the place where we would least expect it. If you really think about it. It makes perfect sense.
As St. Alphonsus de’Liguroi said, “My Jesus! What a lovabel contrivance this Holy Sacrament was – that You would hide under the appearance of bread to make Yourself loved and to be available for a visit by anyone who desires You
Yet, even while He remains with us here in the Eucharist, it is only a taste. We will still hunger for Him and remain restless until we finally rest with Him eternally. We are on a constant journey towards Him. My daughter and I were sitting on the couch looking at the wallpaper we still had to take down (before we finished it) and I said that it’s been hard and tiring but it will be nice when it’s all done and we can just enjoy the new room. After a few minutes she said, “Yeah, kind of like heaven….it will be hard and we’ll have to pray a lot but then we’ll just be there and everything will just be good.” Yes, daughter, everything will just be good. Until then, I am thankful for the Eucharist and the Sacraments and for family and friends who help me to find God here so that I, and hopefully others together, can find Who we are looking for and enjoy eternal satisfaction and peace and rest with Him.