I’ve been meditating and reflecting a lot on God’s Will for me; what is He calling me to do?
I ask Him, “Lord, what do you want of me? Where and how do you want me to serve you?
His answer has always been simple: ” Here. Right here.”
He says this to me when I am nursing (or when I was anyway), or when I am putting the kids to bed at night or for naps.
“Here. Right here.”
He says this to me when I’m doing laundry or working in the kitchen.
“Here. Right here.”
He is answer is always so simple. So…peaceful and somehow full of everything I really need to know. Yet, I am but a human being and do not accept it. I want more. (Cue: Ariel). I try to make it complicated and put words in His mouth; add my own plans and try to accessorize His Will with my own embellishments.
In the end, the naked simplicity of His Will is beautiful without anything extra. His Will is perfect…even if it is simple.
Though His Will, His grace, is all I need and I want to accept His answer to be “Here. Right here”, I am weak and stubborn.
I try to add my own plans and force something into it that really doesn’t belong. And God is too patient with me and lets me find out how wrong I am. I love my vocation as a wife and mother. But as I wrote and shared here at CatholicMom.com, it is challenging to balance serving my family in the home and serving those around me outside of the home and apart from my family.
I 100% believe in the importance of a mother being at home and available as much as she can for her family, especially when the kids are young. However, I also see a huge need for women to serve in the world outside of their home and families as well. Women bring a certain dynamic, a unique “genius” to decisions and to the workplace. Men are very good concrete thinkers but women help bring in the right amount of emotion and practical thinking to transform their ideas into a realistic application. This is especially true for women who are also mothers; women who know what family life is really like, what a family needs and how to sensibly help families carry out their missions and support themselves.
In his Apostolic Letter, Mulieris Dignitatem (On the Dignity and Vocation of Women), Pope John Paul II speaks very highly of women; both as mothers and as women in the world.
When we say that the woman is the one who receives love in order to love in return, this refers not only or above all to the specific spousal relationship of marriage. It means something more universal, based on the very fact of her being a woman within all the interpersonal relationships which, in the most varied ways, shape society and structure the interaction between all persons – men and women. In this broad and diversified context, a woman represents a particular value by the fact that she is a human person, and, at the same time, this particular person, by the fact of her femininity. This concerns each and every woman, independently of the cultural context in which she lives, and independently of her spiritual, psychological and physical characteristics, as for example, age, education, health, work, and whether she is married or single.
As I look around and observe, I see many mothers who put their families first but also find small ways to share their time and talent with others at paid and volunteer positions as extensions of their work at home. One friend is a nurse, another teaches part-time, one gets to escape for a few hours a week to
play pool work with a parish website company, and another will soon share here talent and expertise in cake/cookie decorating. In each place, in their homes and at their jobs, they are following God’s will to serve their family and to bring Christ’s love to all the world simply by living their lives for Him in everything they do.
Though I know God calls me to serve my family “at home” for now, and I’m doing a better job of figuring out how to do this, I still like to share my “feminine genius” that God gave me in other ways and as the kids get older I’m sure God’s simple Will for me will branch out from the main trunk of our “domestic church“.
I would love to work/volunteer with supporting strong marriages and families; which includes a greater awareness of the Marriage as a sacred and living Sacrament and the gift of Natural Family Planning. I’d really love to work with pregnancy crisis centers or other work to support mothers. Motherhood is beautiful, but without the proper help and mother-to-mother support, it can seem more like a burden than the joyful gift it is. I also dream of writing a book or two one day…not sure about what yet but something.
For now, I will focus on God’s simple call for me to be “Here. Right here.”