My Father


faith, Grief, Random

Jesus has always been with me, a part of me. He has always been approachable, attractive. My love for him has grown deeper over my years but I can’t remember a time in my life without him. The Father, however, is a different story altogether. I know, I know, Jesus and the Father are one […]

June 16, 2019

Who is Jesus to You?


faith, Grief, Mental, Random

Someone asked me the other day who Jesus is to me. A friend? A warrior? A tortured naked man nailed to the cross because of my faults? (#biggestguilttripever) No…I couldn’t relate to any of those. I had to pause and think about that, like really reflect on that question for a few days. Jesus…Jesus…hmmm….who is […]

June 2, 2019

Renewed


faith, Grief

Renewed. In a word, that’s how I feel. I’m not “back”, I now know now I’ll never be “back”. And that’s ok. I’m ok. I’m ok, I am ok! I’ll still have those moments, those days, when the missing is too intense, the memories still pinch. I’ll always remember: The pain, the sorrow, the trauma. […]

January 28, 2018

A Healing Goodbye to Our Dog


faith, Grief, Random

About three years ago, we welcomed our first dog into our family – Bella. Sadly, a few weeks ago, we had to let her go. I had been resistant to getting a dog despite my husband’s and kid’s desire for a family dog. We had a chance to dog-sit Bella a couple times for our […]

March 31, 2017

It Just Takes Time


faith, Grief

It just takes time [for the heart to heal]. A friend whispered this to me during my adoration hour and I let the phrase seep into me and guide my thoughts. What does that mean, “it takes time”? Usually, when I hear this phrase I think of time as abstract and passive. But this time […]

March 19, 2017